To my queen, Kira,

I'm so sorry. I promised I wouldn't rush the decision. Just that morning you looked cozy in your sphynx pose, looking up at me with clear, bright eyes. It's like you didn't mind at all that your back legs didn't work anymore. I carried you everywhere and you nuzzled and loved on me like it was no bother to you. I would have quit my job and never slept again if it was possible for me to just carry you like that everywhere. How much more time would we have had? 22 years and 9 months is not enough. So I took you in, and the doctor said there's nothing more to do. No more meds to try. It could have been a month or a day till you started to actually look like you were suffering. I could wait till your pain was out of control, or I could do it now and then, while you still had some ability to focus and see me. So I made the choice not to wait till your suffering was so bad that it was obvious, or I come home to find you fallen or stuck for hours. And then once the decision was made that it was time... I rushed it. We were both there at the doctor's office. I didn't feel like I could come back to do it later. It took about an hour and a half, I cried and held you, you had no idea what was coming. I knew it was a possibility though, that's why I wrapped you thoughtfully in a blanket this time to take you there. I gave you your last treats. You fell asleep on my arms, and then it was over. Biggest regret of my life. I should have taken home some medication and taken just one more night with you. Why didn't I do that? I will regret it for the rest of my life. How could I do that to you? To both of us? How could I not give us one more night together for a proper goodbye? Spend the night cuddling you like we both deserved? I miss you so much, my heart is exploding with pain. You were the light and the color in my life. You saved my life over and over, loved me when there was no love in my life, the only family and companion of my upbringing that lasted. It will never be the same without you, my queen. I hope I did the right thing. I love you so much. I miss you like no one would ever believe. Goodbye, my love. Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye.

Love,

Tal

My dearest Samantha B.,

It hasn’t even been 48 hours but I can’t believe you are gone. It happened so quick but I’m glad I was with you. I want to walk downstairs and see you perched on the door of the “big cage”, but if I go down it will just be empty and quiet. Your food is still in the dish. I try to imagine you sitting quietly on the perch behind me, but I know you aren’t. I miss you so much. When you flew over the rainbow bridge you took my heart with you. I wish I could sing you our song one more time while giving you scritchies- “Sometimes the B. stands for beautiful, and sometimes the B. is for boisterous, and sometimes the B. is just for b*tchy, Samantha B. Bird.” Really, the B. stood for best friend. I miss you and hope that when my time to leave comes you’ll be there to greet me. I love you always my dear friend.

Love,

Your human Chris

My sweet baby girl Sofi,

Hi Sof, my sweet baby girl. It has taken me almost a year to sit down and write you a letter in this site my client created for her late dog Pushkin. My baby girl I miss you so much. I am so so sorry that I chose to put you asleep. It was the hardest decision I have ever taken my baby, but I couldn't bear to watch you suffer any more. You left a giant emptiness in my heart because you were my soul dog. In fact I am sure you were a human in a dog's body. Thank you for being my best friend through the hardest times of my life - cancer, divorce, abusive relationship. You were the one to lick my tears and the love I felt from you was like no other. I miss you my sweet Sofi. Yesterday you would have been 11. I didn't want to celebrate Christmas eve because that was always your day. This is the first Christmas without you. It's not the same. I have your ashes by my bed and I can't let go of them. I want you by my side - always. Please watch over us! give me a sign that you are here somehow..... Sofi there will never be anyone like you. I love you forever my baby Sof.

Love always,

Mommy - Nadia

My sweet Jimmy ,

This is our first Christmas without you and I’m heartbroken about it. I love you so much and miss you endlessly. I miss seeing your sweet face under the tree and watching us all open presents. Nana passed away a month and a half ago too and now I just feel lost without both of you. I hope you’re with Victoria and have said hello to Nana. I bought cat nip for your sisters but it won’t be the same without you sweet boy. I hope you’re watching us and are proud of how we’ve been handling the grief of losing you. Merry Christmas my dear sweet boy. I look for you everywhere even though I know you’re around my neck and on my bedside table. I just want a snuggle and a kiss. I love you Jimmy Bear. Merry Christmas baby.

Love always,

Mommy

Dear Chocolate,

To my sweet boy, it's been almost four years since you left us, and the hole that you left in our hearts is still there. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think about you, I keep you so close to my heart. Life has been so different since you took your last breath, I'm no longer the same girl but at the same time, when I look at pictures at you, I still feel like the 9-year old girl looking at her puppy.

We had an amazing 14 years together, didn't we? So many adventures, slow days, sunny naps and grumpy walks. I had the time of my life, and I will remember you for the rest of my life, my sweet boy. I see you in Buddy and JC, they're a perfect mix of you. Sometimes when Buddy is naughty, I remember the time when you stole a whole burrito and junior chicken off the table. When JC is cuddly, I remember how that was your favourite thing, and you'd bark at me so you could come up on the bed with me.

Choc, you will forever live in my heart, and I will always remember you. Thank you for getting me through the hardest times, you were truly what I lived for. So much joy, naughtiness and love is a small package/

Love,

Alex

Sweet Coco,

You've been gone for a year now. Not a single day goes by without me thinking about you. You're passing left a hole in my life that just filled with hurt. Sometimes I feel that if I let go of that hurt I'll forget you but that's not possible . You saved me, you didn't know it but you saved me. I can never forget you for that I can never stop loving you for that

Coco, I'm going to get another. She needs a home . She needs to be saved the way you saved me. She could never replace you and never will. You will always be my sweety and I will always love you

I miss you

Love,

Jon

My dearest Lucky, aka Beebz, aka my little baby,

My sweet little baby. You were the love and light of my life. My best friend. My sidekick. All I ever wanted from this life was to feel truly loved, and you gave that with your whole heart. I can only hope you felt as loved in return. Your sudden departure has left such a deep wound that I will always try to heal with memories of you; your gentle nature, your adorable little face, your warmth cuddled up to me every night. I will miss your agreeable little meows, your kekek-ing at birds (and dad). The only comfort I find now is in these memories. I hope we meet again, in another life or time..and if not, this one life was worth living just to have been able to spend a fraction of it with you.

Love you forever

Love always,

Mom

Sweet Chloe,

My little Chloe

You were my baby and it’s been two years without you

No one understands how I can still miss you so much

You were my soul dog and there will be no others

The loss of you hurts too much

I maybe have only had 8 years with you but they where the best

A lot of times I felt like it was you and me against the world

Mommy misses you so much

Love,

Joan Thompson

My sweet Cookie Pie ,

My sweet boy. How did I not imagine how much I would miss you? I’ve said hundreds of goodbyes now throughout my nursing years… how I had hoped that those days would be gone soon, and we could move on. The thought of moving on without you, my heart dismisses. I think about you all the time, my beautiful boy! Your energy will stay with mom always, just like I promised you. Mom will always be here. And Mom will be ok, just like I promised you. I am so grateful to have held you in my arms next to our Zalie girl, just the 3 of us one more time. I know now that you waited, and I don’t know how to thank you… for everything you’ve given us these 16 years.

The house is so quiet without your voice, Cookie. Nothing feels like home. What I wouldn’t give to have you pat me on the cheek with your little paw just one more time.

But no matter how much time we have, it is never enough, and I will miss you as strongly and with a painful beauty that can transcend time and space… the same today as 500 months from now.

Thank you for loving me, Cookie Pie. You will always be one of the greatest gifts the universe has given to me. Thank you for teaching me so much. Thank you for calling me “Mom.”

Love,

Mom

Dear Little Bear,

Your sense of adventure was an inspiration. You had so much energy and some pretty serious playfulness. You always seemed like you had a genuine sense of purpose in everything you did. You seemed to enjoy the beach the best of all places and yet you took pleasure in the small things, a good treat, a good meal, a nice warm bed and being with your pack. You had a wonderful heart, and I will miss you every day. Be in Joy and play forever now little one.

Love,

Mama Bear