My sweet Lily,

It's been four days since I lost you. You were 10. I'm so sorry I didn't recognize the distress you were in Wednesday night. I thought "if you still feel bad in the morning, we'll go to the vet."

Thursday I woke up and you did not.

I miss you so terribly. You were my best friend. You were my everything. My apartment is so cold and empty now. I look over and don't see you looking back at me and it breaks my heart. My world is falling apart.

I miss your morning smile and how much you loved chest rubs. I miss the morning hand licks. I miss the sound of you jumping off the bed. I miss you running to the door when I come home. I miss the hugs you wanted when I put my stuff down after coming home. I miss you leaning against me every chance you had. I miss the way you'd chase a treat across the room when I threw it. I miss your boops when you wanted attention. I miss your periscope tail. I miss you falling asleep on my feet when we watched tv.

I'm sorry I was not able to give you a yard to run and sniff in. We were so close. I wear your collar on my wrist because it still smells like you. You were the best part of the last 10 years.

I love you so much.

Love,

Rob