Sweet My beautiful baby boy Jonah!!,

My sweet, sweet baby boy it’s almost a year now and there’s not a day that goes by that I don’t cry. Something triggers it. The pain is not as bad as it was initially. I think if I were able to get another little creature to love and nurture it would help a lot. But I can’t. I spent so much money on you and I would do it all over again. I just have to be smart. For a change lol I don’t know if it’s good but I look at your pictures or not but. You were just so gorgeous and I love you so much. I’ll always love you. I truly believe that you’re with God. And I know that he answered my prayers in so many ways. He is so good. I am more focused on him now than I ever was. And that may be part of it all I don’t know. I just pray to God with all my heart and soul that we meet again and love you, baby boy take care, mommy love you so much.

Love,

Mommy