This letter from Barbara to Tonto was written on Friday, October 22, 2010

Dear Tonto,

We had Pizza last night and that always brings you to me with a little smile and then the tears. The way you would set in front of me with the drewl hanging from the corners of your mouth. you always knew that if you sayed that way long enough I would give in and you would get all the crust from the Pizza. I will never know if I did the right thing in having you put to sleep. I just didn't think it was right to keep you doped up on pills to stop the pain and to watch you stumble and trip at 110lbs I know you hurt. I take heart in knowing that you are in heaven and we will be together again. You stayed by my side when I needed someone the most. The 11 months that Dustin was in Iraq you were there to lesson when I needed to talk or cry when it really got hard I actually think you knew what was going on. And everytime Dustin would call you wanted to hear his voice on the phone. Remember when I would bring a puppy home I never had to potty train them you did that for me. You would show them the doggie door and how to use it and that they had to go behind the tree so no one could watch. Penny is doing good she is 10 now and not moving around much. I am afraid that her time wont be much longer here with me. It is funning when I got you you were a mistake that a reg. English bulldog made by breeding with a Lab. Now they call that a Bullador. that seems like such a HARD name for the most loving caring and friendliest dog that I ever had. I hope you want mind if one day I try to find one that looks like you. It has been 4 years now and it still feels like you will walk around the corner any minute. GOD how I miss you. You were my best friend my family and I love you so much. When it is my time to come meet you they are going to put your ashes with me. I hope you don't mind that I just couldn't put them ijn the ground. I wanted them with me until we are together again. Run strong Tonto and enjoy the clouds . I will bring you a pizza when I come. And Thank you for 14 years of Love. I Miss you.