My sweet boy Henry,

Words can not express the guilt I feel for putting you to rest. No one understood what was happening so quickly to you. You had gone from such a happy boy that loved his food and his people to sleeping all day and night. I prayed it was dental but is was not. You were loosing weight and muscle and eating was a chore so you did very little of it. When you started having eye problems my grief grew heavy. Not able to jump to your high perch just made me so sad because that was your favorite place to be. I just couldn't let you suffer like this. When I took you in to the vet I was so sad and grieving over your loss even when you were still there. Please forgive me for putting you to rest that same day. I couldn't bare watching you suffer more. The vet said you wouldn't survive another round of anesthesia for a ct because the first round they were afraid for what they were seeing. The vet said tumor and for some reason I cant get it out of my head I could have saved you somehow. What if. What if it were something else plays over and over. Now I will really never know. You were there for me when your sister passed and now you too are gone. The house is empty and so is my heart. Please forgive me. I did it out of love and compassion. The vet said it would get worse and never better. I couldn't see you suffer another day.

I miss your happy hellos at the door. My nightly bed visits and just seeing you pester your sister just because. I hope you dont mind I am giving your perch to Matthew for your cat cousin because I cant bear seeing it empty eveyday.

I hope you are in heaven playing, running free painless and happy again. I hope you were greeted by your sister Gracie and brother Bert. Please forgive me I loved you so. I hope you find it in your heart for a last time visit so I know you are okay. I will love you forever! Rest well my sweet boy Henry, you deserve the best.

Love,

Anne your mom 💗