Dear Sweetheart,

I have refused to think about your death and life for so long because it broke me down that winter night... it broke my heart, I was so lost. I am so, so sorry. I wasn't there for you when you needed me most, I am so sorry. You have no idea how much I hate my cowardliness for not being there while you died. I was so afraid of my emotions, of how I might react, I had never allowed myself to feel that deeply before. You gave me freedom my beautiful girl. The stable didn't like us very much but that was okay... for the first time to me that was okay if someone didn't like me, because I had you. You were the most spirited mare in the whole place, no one could run faster and no one had as much zest for life. To this day I wish I spent more time with you than I did, I let life and all it's complications take me away from you. Please please forgive me for leaving you. I had to go away for a while, I loved you very much... I just couldn't stay. I wasted two years away from you and I was too ashamed to see you because I felt like I had abandoned you. I love you so much and I wish you were still here today so that I could tell you that. You were the most amazing companion I could have ever asked for. I only wish that I could have been that for you. As I touched your still warm body they said you had passed just a few moments before I got there. It was like you were still alive, your body was still warm, I wanted the whole world to disappear because I had lost my shelter and my friend. You were an extension of my soul, that is how I saw you and now I hope you are in peace, I hope you are up there with Jesus and he is stroking your nose and you have fields to run through. You deserve the world my queen. One day I hope you can forgive me for abandoning you. I can only promise you this... I swear that from this day forward I will make it a duty and calling to care with as much of my time and energy as I can for all animals I am blessed to encounter. I am about to adopt a horse named Cheif, I struggled with how you might feel about it but I believe that you would have been okay with it. You would have liked him. He will teach me much and I know that... but he will never take your place. You will always be my little Arabian free spirit, my queen, my teacher my friend. I love you, I love you so much. I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you.

Forever always in my heart. Forever always a part of my soul.

Peace,
Chloe

Dear Amber,

You have made our house a home these past 16 years. I am remembering the times we have had together as I happen by them on my travels. Many of these memories had been forgotten until now.

I remember when you were able to take long walks and enjoy the fresh air and know that you are in heaven with my dad and with Grandma and others running through the fields and enjoying their company.

I feel a bit lost without you. Don't really have a reason to rush home after work to an empty house. Kitty is here and offers some support but miss your smiling face and walks to go outside.

I dropped off many of your supplies to the kennel you stayed in a couple of weeks ago and hope another senior dog and their mom will have good use for them. I kept your beds and the covers for the car seats.....just can't part with everything. Kitty is enjoying the beds.

Your ashes in the house provide some comfort to me. I have received many cards from those who have memories to share. Not sure if I can part with your ashes or where to put them at least for now.

I am so glad we were able to have that last weekend together and for you to be at peace at home. Mommy loves you.

Love,
Mommy

Dear Hannah,

I never knew how much damage i would have when you left.I knew you wanted to leave,you were in so much pain.And it hurts me to say that for my satisfaction i made you stay with me when really it wasn't about me being happy it was about you.i kept you her trapped in pain just so i was happy when you weren't happy and you were in pain.so i am so sorry.You had a great long life for a dog with arthritis that could barley walk,a heart mum er,brain cancer,and water in you lungs.You ment the world to me,i wish i spent every waking secound with you,i know i didnt now that im older,and no matter what i did or or what i said you always loved me.you were my best friend,probably my favorite (person) in the family.Even if people said that dogs dont go to heaven,i know that god would make a special place in heaven just for you.I miss you so much.

Love,
owner Ali

Dear TrixieLU,

Dearest dearest BabyLU. Thank you for making your way to me. We only had 16 months together, but I could not have asked for a sweeter, funnier, more loving little terrier to guard over me and fill my days with fun. I couldn't believe when the shelter asked me to take you home - after the other dogs, you were kind of like having a cat! SO small, but fierce, oh my lord you were fierce. And SO determined. And so funny. And so so so loving. I loved kissing your little snout and I treasured our special greeting every single morning. I loved stopping at Tim's to buy donuts just for you and I loved pulling other dogs' hair out of your teeth when you thought they'd get too close to me. I slept in bed last night - first time in weeks. I will miss you getting me up for your pee at 5AM and I'll miss how you came to me for comfort time and again, esp these last weeks together, when you were feeling so rough. I'd do anything LU, to take away your discomfort and your fear. Please, please be on the other side and wait for me. It's truly all I want from this life, is to see you, and all my dogs again. Please god, make it so. I love you little one. I just love you so.

Love,
mitch & stella too.

Dear Jenny,

I remember you vividly, even to this day. You and I grew up together. You were the only friend when I was a child that never judged me. You never made me feel inferior because I am permanently disabled. You accepted me as though I was just your sister and not some cripple you were stuck with. I will never forget the day dad had you put down because at age almost 16 you developed throat cancer. Mother took me to get my hair done but, she made sure I knew when I got home, you would be gone. Jenny, I will never forget your goodbye to me. I will never forget the love I had and STILL have for you. Jenny, my first dog and my first REAL friend, please wait for me in Heaven. I want to see you again. Oh I love you so much. It has been many years now since I was sixteen and you were sixteen and dying. That night I wanted to go with you. Now, at age forty four, I really wish I had. All my love and thank you my Labradoodle before they were popular. Jenny, you will never know how to brightened my world. I have had and do have dogs and cats now, still but, I will never forget my first and very best friend. Dear God, please take care of my Jenny. She still means the world to me. Jenny, thank you and I love you very much, I always, always will!! Love, Dawn

Love,
Dawn